List of pleasures

The grass that grows between the cement
The voice of my mum
Swimming alone,
Knowing you’re on the shore waiting for me,
Coming back to you,
Go back into the water
When you are in a group of people someone starts singing a song, and everyone knows the song, and you all start singing
Dancing in the club
The first zip of beer after a long day of work
The moment I realise that I am in a great moment,
I look around and I’m happy,
I don’t want this moment to go away
And then it’s over
When the birds come back in spring
Chestnut in autumn
Watermelon in summer
A good session of stretching
Osteopathy
A good session of therapy
When the train finally arrives
Tuna mayo sandwich
Making a coffee with the camping gas in the middle of nowhere
Talking about a movie with someone
Sleeping in my king size bed
Breakfast
When you call me
Kisses on my back
Knowing what makes you horny
Then making your dream come true
My sex toy
Bread with fresh ricotta and jam
Understand a language
Understand people
Having the right words to say sorry
When the dog is finally out
When the piece is finally over
A new pack of tobacco,
The first cigarette from a new pack of tobacco
To hear a song you completely forgot but you loved it once
The speeches of Pepe Mujica
Running over 8 km
And keep on running
The moment right before penetration
My chosen family
When a random memory comes back
Justice
When people fight for the rights of other people
A big demo in support of Palestine, Lebanon, and Iran
Gmail
A well-written email
Les Années by Annie Ernaux
Doing crosswords before going to sleep
To be right
A pair of pants that fit me well
Looking at my back
Flirting
Sexting
Nude pic
Dirty talks
Coming back home
Folding pants in 3 steps
Switching off the light
When the fridge is full
When my peers do amazing artwork
Witness the success of people I love
Witness the happiness of the people I love
Witness the transformation of people I love
When the hairdresser finally understands which haircut I want
Starting a new agenda
Meeting someone new and fantasising about our future life together
Cooking for people
Invite people at my place
Organise a gathering
When my friends get to know each other and they like each other
Watering my plants
Skin against skin
Black melted chocolate and salt
The smell of chicorée in my grandparents' house
The turning chair turning by herself
Darius always starting in the same way
The lemon offering
Being too close to the mic
Whispering into objects
Licking a woman’s body
Chocolate melting with salt
Licking my arms after sea salt
Fake TV smiles and real breakdowns
Levrette a bit too hard and my head in the pillow
Laughing at the wrong moment
Feeling places of resistance in a chaotic world
Doing it just to see what happens
When someone holds the mic for us
Breathing strongly and loudly with
When the heater finally works
When I finally cry
Observing strangers laughing in the street
Messy faces, messy sheets
Darius ventilating us with a shirt
Swimming naked in a frozen river in the south
Changing the space
Slipping fingers
Absurd climax of things that don’t matter
Fingers deep in my mouth
Spitting
Sleeping alone in a big bed
Words from Luis Ansa
Her hand on my belly
The first sensation from the first glass of wine
Touching my naked and shaved legs even if I'm supposed to be a feminist
Having an orgasm in a plane just by squeezing my legs
When the dog is finally out
When my roommates finally clean
Eating his food, his lips
When I realise I'm in a big transfer with my psychoanalyst
Releasing everything after a big huge huge intense fucking intense my god crazy fucking intense effort
Watching again and again, Bridget Jones / Love Actually / The Holiday / Gossip Girl
Dressing without panties in summer and knowing nobody knows
Cutting my hair by myself, realise I’m not a hairdresser but I don’t fucking care it looks sexy anyway
Eating chocolate in my bed
Having a nice natural wine with my friends
Traveling alone
Having sex with a stranger
Tasting men as you test food in a foreign country
Licking a whole body
Feeling a strong hand at the back of your neck
Kissing for too long
Dancing for hours on a dance floor
Sweating of ecstasy
Swimming in the sea
Eating the fresh cookie dough
Smelling the warm asphalt after a heavy rain
Taking off my shoes smoothly
Watching a movie alone in a cinema
Drinking a tempered water glass after eating an ice cream
Observing the architectural details on the facade of post-16th-century buildings
Eating an Iranian dish
Taking a long car journey as a passenger
Working calmly on the train
Cycling to discover a city
Feeling my fingers when I scratch my feet,
The crotch
Looking at the shape of my poo
Sleeping with the windows and shutters open
Eating organic
Finishing what I've started
Organizing things
Being proactive
Success
Getting a massage
Massaging someone to seduce them
Knowing that the people I love are okay
Cooking for my lovers
Being in love
Being passionate
Being exciting
Having a clean apartment
Spending a quiet day
Eating a carrot
Picking cherries
Gardening exceptionally
Speaking Italian or English
Being a foreigner
Going to Greece
Taking a long shower
Feeling the water on my skin
Sleeping without an alarm clock
Making and eating a croziflette, lasagna alla genovese, tiramisu, fraisier, tarte et quiche,
Pizza margherita, crêpes
To have ideas and defend them
Not to be racist
To be the product of multiculturalism, an Iranian father and a Franco-German-Polish mother
To find richness and beauty in mixing
To ignore the notion of purity and prefer what is dirty, slimy, and unattractive
To be queer
To have sex with men
To suck cock
To suck cock and make it a political goal
To smile honestly at you, feeling there’s nothing to hide
To ingest things in the right order, lunch, cigarette, coffee, dessert
Or, lunch, dessert, coffee, cigarette
To hold the gaze of a happy dog
To finally see the horizon after being closed in a city for a while
To smell my fingertips after smoking
When the smell of linden finally surprises me and it means it's summer
When the smell of jasmine finally surprises me and it means it’s summer in the south
To catch the public transport connection tightly
To fall asleep in the U-Bahn when I am coming back home drunk
To witness any gesture that questions power structures
Riding my bike after oiling the chain,
Riding my bike after a Feldenkrais class
To stay completely still while coming, just letting it happen to you
Soft lips applying the right pressure
The sound of the world disappearing while going underwater
Clean sheets
Old TV shows that I know by heart
A car that doesn’t make noise
Fitting parts of another body into my body, for example, an elbow fitting perfectly in the eye socket
Taking out shoes after a long day
To still be able to appreciate something, despite everything
Any time my account has more than 700 euros
My friends getting their visas, and thinking fuck the state
My friends getting European citizenships in the weirdest ways
My friends skipping military service
A seed sprouting
A plant surviving despite not having been watered enough
Any kind of liquid during sex
To stretch time looking at genitals just before putting them in my mouth
To come to Berlin with you
To exchange money in a country that has a different currency
The pleasure of silence